I want to preface this by letting you guys know this isn’t a sad post. Yes, it’s about my little brother who died less than six months ago. Yes, this is our first Christmas without him. But, this is my fondest Christmas memory that also involves him. I needed to do this for myself, and I thought I would share with the people who seem to get the craziness that goes on in my noggin. So, without further ado….
Dreaming of a White Christmas
1983, the last time I remember seeing snow so high it reached my waist….
“Allison! Allison! Get up! Santa’s been here!” Matthew had called from the bedroom door. He’d kept his voice down to whisper, just in case Mom and Dad had already been awake. After all, someone had to make sure Santa got his cookies. Matthew had been really adamant about that.
“Get up! We have presents!”
He’d dragged the covers off of me even before I’d peeled my eyes open. I’d told him to stop and rolled back over in the bed. He wasn’t even supposed to be in my room. That had been the rule.
Eventually, he’d managed to get me out of bed.
At seven years old, I should’ve been as excited as my three year old brother, but he’d been the one to see the presents, not me.
He’d grabbed my hand and pulled me out of my room. I’d padded behind him, Strawberry Shortcake gown beating around my ankles. The rough feet of his footed jumper scratched against the dark brown carpet of the living room.
The moment the flickering, colorful lights of the Christmas tree and the spread of toys came into view, I’d found his same enthusiasm.
Mommy and Daddy hadn’t woken up yet, but we’d already started playing with our new toys—Barbies and over-sized dump trucks, GI Joe men and a giant Rainbow Bright doll. It was amazing.
Eventually Mom and Dad woke up, and they had to pry us away from our toys to make us eat breakfast. My brother and I scarfed down the food. It was probably oatmeal or maybe bacon and eggs, I can’t remember that part. I do however, distinctly remember seeing all the bright white light coming in from behind the tree after mom had opened the curtains.
We opened the presents and took a million pictures. Mom still has those pictures, but back in that time, people didn’t have digital cameras and computers. Most of those pictures were taken with an old Polaroid, and unfortunately, I don’t have time to scan them all in to share.
But I digress.
Once we’d opened out presents and donned our thick coats, Daddy had taken us outside to build our snowman. I remember it being so cold outside it made my nose burn, and Mom kept saying we needed to come in before we got sick, but we had to finish our snowman.
It had all the bells and whistles—three huge balls of snow for the body, coal for the eyes and mouths, one of those tacky trucker’s hats because every house seemed to have an abundance of those back in the 80s, and one ratty old scarf so Frosty wouldn’t get cold. Frosty lived a long life… a whole three days before the sun melted him into a small mound of mush and coal and disregarded clothes.
I’m sure there have been more white Christmas’s since then, but that one stuck with me. Maybe because that had been the first one Matthew had been old enough to drag me out of bed. Maybe the snowman made it special. I couldn’t honestly say, but this Christmas, that memory will stay with me.
This Christmas, I’ll be dreaming of snowmen, and Santa Clause, and my little brother dragging me out of bed to open presents….
Now, for the fun stuff…
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"Sins of the Heart" ~ Part of Dreamspinner Press's "Bittersweet Dreams" series
"Evernight: Romance in a World of Darkness - Vol. 1"
"Evernight: Romance in a World of Darkness - Vol. 2"
"The Witch's Familiar"
"Kissing Is Easy..."
"Chief of Thrones"
"Seasons of Change" ~ Part of Silver Publishing's "Summer Heat" series
"Sin and Seduction" ~ Book One
"Lies & Seduction" ~ Book Two
"Patient Privilege" ~ Book One
"Aphrodite's Gift" ~ League of Slayers Book One